I shouldn’t be feeling like this. I should be smiling instead of crying. Even when its not my fault i still find it in me to say i’m sorry. It seems like if i say something its a problem and if i dont say anything that’s a problem as well. I dislike talking about how i feel and trying to explain whats wrong. So when i do finally express how i’m feeling and get nothing back i feel dumb. And that causes me to shut down. I’m lost for words. Seems like i have already lost you and there is no chance of getting you back. Its only a matter of time before i get that dreadful msg saying we are through..